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sooo since tha last time i wrote...my man been actin funny n shit n aint picked up tha phone n 3 days n shit sooo i got sick of it since fo tha past week he would call me every hour and we would fall asleep on tha phone n shit ....sooo i texted him n i was like aight tha fuck u ignoring me n shit...n he texted me n was like what u mean n im like shit i call you ..you dont answer tha fuck it that shit and soo he called me n shit and he was drunk ..just left tha bar with his cousins n shit n he was like what�u mean ..u dont wanna fuck wit me no more and im like i didn't say that..im sayin u better change ur shit up cuz i aint finna have you do me wrong n he was like sorry baby i was jus hustlein n thinkin bout money and shit fo tha past 3 days i wasn't tryin ta ignore u n shit n i was like all u care bout if ur fuckin money..im like u finna be lonley n shit n he all like tellin me how i mean so much ta him and that he think im really tha one fo him that can help him do better and help him stop huslin n shit n sooo we still see...

Have you ever wondered about something, and it just got on your nerves so bad because you couldn't figure out the answer or reason why? Well, I have been feeling that way for a while now. I've been wondering why my dad hasn't called me in almost a month after he promised me he would keep in touch this time. I've been wondering why my grandpa, the most wonderful, amazing, sweetest...awesomest, person in the entire world is lying in a nasty hospital bed dying from Leukemia. I wonder why little innocent children are starving to death all around the world while rich snobby people pig out on expensive food and take everything they have for granted. I wonder all of these things and more, and I am just so frustrated that I can't ever get the answers I need! Ugh!

I came to my boyfriends house and I really wanted to cuddle but he is playing video games like he always does. I�love to cuddle. I�wish he would show me more love I�guess. We don't hold hands in public, he doesn't kiss me that much, doesn't put his arm around me when we go to the movies. I wish that he would do these things. It is like he gets so involved in his life like work,video games,movies that he forgets that I want to be a part of it too. It sucks sometimes. Our sixth month anniversary is coming up soon. i�have no idea what to expect. Any advice? Should I�tell him anything? Should we talk about it? I have no idea.

What should I�do? My parents are arguing almost every day over finances or that they don't like where they live. I�am going crazy because lately it has been an everyday occurence. Anyways I�leave and go to either my boyfriends house or my friend Laurens house and my mom calls me like every�5 minutes to find out what I am doing and when I�am coming home. I love my parents but why do they have to argue like everyday. I�tell them that it is driving me crazy and stressing me out but they continue to argue anyways. Is there anything else that I can tell them so they can stop? What can I do when my mom is blowing up my phone saying I�can't deal with this anymore and when are you coming home? I�get so annoyed just thinking about it. UGh!

I hadf my first nite out last nite in a long time. since iv had kids anyway. 3 years.

but last nite dick bf actually let me go out to the cinema with my best friend. obviously he didnt like it, but he's not a dick in public so he cudnt really say no. although i still had to put the kids to bed, sort out his food and make sure� he had weed before i left the house. god i had an amazing night. getting a few admiring glances from blokes....id forgotten what attention from the opposite sex felt like. luke doesn't count, he's cyber. i expected him to be in a stinking mood when i got in but he was suprisingly ok. great!!! i think he's beginning to realise� im changing. im starting to think about me again. and about bloody time too!!!

I am super exited! few more weeks I gotta be with my man! thats right! MY MAN god I miss him so much, I will be flying my boys kayden and stoopy and leave them with him.. i do hope that he likes my boys too and love them.. i am scared for my boys and him not sure how are these three gonna survive each ..

been busy day @ wrk 2day I really think am way too old for this field run around all damn day! but then again I can't really see myself sitting in office all day that will put me to sleep and will get bored and probably add more fat on my big belly already

Watched tha movie "tha unborn" n i gotta say i felt like i already watched it..theres gotta be a movie that is jus like it cuz i was disapointed how i could guess what was finna happend before it happend....i mean it made me jump a couple times n shit cuz i always do that with scurry movies...then i fought with my mans cousin a lil ..u no talked some shit back n forth n then kicked it with my lil woman....then drove my man ta walgreens and he woudln't let me come in cuz there was some black boys with long nappy ass hair in there and he no how i love ta braid soooooo he made me sit in tha car so i was bangin my music with his hat on n tha black boy with tha long hair came out with his friends and started dancin n actin dum ta my music ...he was prob drunk ..i jus laughed at em..he was wit some geeky white gurl pushin a stoller with a mixed like couple month ol baby...she didn't look happy that i was laughin at her man but its ok i really dont care...yea my man n his cousin had ta get they damn flamein hot cheetos cuz they fat asses...fuckin cheeto heads....n now im back home still paintin graffiti on tha outfit im makin...tomorrow im gettin my hair dyed like miss keyshia cole in this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghj05RXTfbA&feature=channel...my hairs already curly...yea i love keyshia cole n her krazy hair colors i think she soo damn purdy....my man dont understand why i gotta get my hair done n shit fo my trip cuz he think im on some otha n on some sneeky shit but whateva ill jus beat his ass later and he will get ova it